it's time i update, thank for reminding me px!
my interesting life. a very loso but short one.
yes, life's normal now, with me sitting up on my bed every morning at 6.30am waiting for calls, or a sudden jerk from my ringtone that become my alarm. sometimes just go pass 7am, then 8am... den i close my eyes and continue to sleep....
and Isabella feels so proud to say she has finished reading her first storybook ever since her school life other than Enid Blyton and Roald Dahl. thanks KhaiEnn who lend me WHERE RAINBOWS END! if only i had wanted to read during my school days. the E grade from my GP would probably become something else... better.
it's time i can finally say i've relief almost all the classes in the school. and i can classify them out alr. once u step in, u knw it. first thing, go in and identify the cute ones and u start to be bias... i tried nt to, cuz the rest will start complaining.
the best thing is to threaten.. i think all teachers do that.. and i always make full use of the period before recess and before school ends.. they really work. =D
managing with noise is another thing... something quite irritating too. but i think i love scolding them. cuz they just dun understand that Miss Yap cant SPLIT herself up asking every group to keep quiet... got to cheek to tell me "why other ppl can talk?" or "why didnt u ask the next group to keep quiet also," and the reason is cuz i have to settle them one-by-one. and before i can settle the next grp, the previous one talks again... (a cycle that never ends) den after that, stand in the middle of the class starting to look angry, hopefully some student will notice and say "Teacher is angry! keep quiet!!!! SSHHHHHHHH!!!!!!" some class will. unfortunately some will just treat me invisible and i'll start my screaming, hoping they'll come to their sense and help me. it's sad when i have to refer them to some other teacher. basically that's my job. i hope none of my student knws my blog...
these ppl treat different teachers differently. maybe it says on my forehead 'im an idiot' or 'bully me'. yes and it's really true.. it's so different when i walk in and when their form teacher walks in. i probably lack the aura that their teacher has... my lesson becomes playtime. so fun. everyone is asking for permission to go toilet. permission to draw. permission to play. permission to do whatever they wish. and if u were to go against them, u have to face all the black faces and they started comparing and complain why i let others do wad they want... quite a difficult spot for me. but i knw wad's right and wad's wrong. but wad seems wrong at that moment, may be right for them. i dunno. sometime im just confused. and they guided me through. now to think of it, makes me a rather stupid teacher..
worse thing that can happen: student killing each other! and teachers can come telling me "u better hurry to that class or they can kill each other" ridiculous. but true. it's scary and u dunno how to settle it. u go crazy with them trying to figure out wad's wrong. and who shld be right who shld be wrong. and the debate goes... with supporters each side. so the balance argument u tried to get isnt very balance in the end. den screamm!!!!!!!!!
really! something happen in the class (e.g. fight, noise, play, wadever u name it here) and their classmates will tell me wad to do. and tell me whichever teacher does that and it worked... so im supposed to follow? but im not that teacher im Miss Yap. yes. then maybe they'll shut up for a moment. PLEASE DUN COMPARE..
but it's so fun when u walked along the corridor, and someone greet u with a smile, knowing who u are, even if u dunno them. that's weird at first. but im starting to love it. it's good to be a known figure sometimes.
u let loose and here's the consequence... they'll cling on u tightly and not let u go until they get every single answer out from you. i regretted not being a fierce one from the start. i tot i'll make a good friend and things will turn out in better control, but im wrong. they are still so young, do they even knw? or understand? sometimes simple instructions are simply ignored... and the screaming starts again. haha. they keep quiet for 10 sec before the noise level started to rise again. a cycle that doesnt end.
but after all it's so much fun getting to know each and every class and why they are there. i knw im not really up to standard but i'll try.. at least im not as stressful as the full-time teachers.. to face the same annoying but cute ppl almost everyday. salute them. cuz if it's me, i can go crazy.
dun remember having so much prob with the teacher in the past. i cant remember having relief teachers that screams... thank you teachers! it's tough being one.